correspondence tuesday [fifteen]

for the past couple of years, I've tried to set aside time on tuesdays to write letters or send packages to the important people in my life who don't live near me. i decided to bring it to the blog and write to an anonymous [important] person each tuesday. this is the fifteenth edition - enjoy!

His way is in whirlwind and storm,
and the clouds are the dust of his feet.

Nahum 1:3b

i read this yesterday morning and thought of you. of course, you've been on my mind a lot these days. when someone i love is going through a hard time, i want to do whatever i can to fix it, change it, make life better and easier. but if God has taught me anything, it's that i CAN'T FIX PEOPLE and especially that i can't change them. i'm learning that sometimes His way is in the whirlwinds and storms of life, that His best doesn't always mean sunshine and rainbows.

i wish you could see yourself the way i see you - the way we all see you. you are truly one of the most beautiful people i've ever met. i don't think you realize the impact you make by simply walking into a room. and on top of that, you are incredibly talented and smart. you never give yourself enough credit, you never want us to make a big deal out of you, and you are hesitant to take a compliment - not because you're prideful, but because you truly don't believe it. i hope that through all of this you begin to look at yourself differently and perhaps realize that you are enough.

so instead of fixing and changing, this is one of those letting go things that i'm getting better at. it's letting you talk if you want to, but if not i will sit beside you silently, hoping you know that i love you. it's crying with you because i see all of the good in you that you don't yet see. it's giving you your space to grieve this loss properly, because it is a loss and there's a process that you have to go through. but most importantly, it's encouraging you to cling to the One who is in the midst of the storm with you, the One who created the storm and can - will - calm it.

there is an edward out there for your bella, except your edward is better than the fictional character we love so much. your edward will love you because of the Jesus he sees when he looks at you. when the time is right, he will love you the right way - the way you deserve to be loved. and you will love again.